you look so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex.

guy number two was perfect in the rite aid parking lot. & up against his car. & in the cemetary. sometimes i call him the soldier.

we held hands while he drove & i swear i've never had that much trouble leaving a guy before.

when he was kissing me, i wanted him. not someone else. i wanted to be exactly where i was, with the person i was there with.

truth be told, i hate when most guys touch me. they're always doing something wrong or it's just uncomfortable.

this felt right, & i want him to ditch the army for me as much as possible from now on.

although i still can't understand why it was worth it to him. he drove five & a half hours just to make out with me & drive around for an hour.

i don't get it. but i'm not letting go of this anytime soon.

before & after