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2007-02-14 - valentines day.
2007-02-13 - let's have a toast to the girl in aisle ten.
2007-02-13 - amazing day.
2007-02-11 - childchildchildchildchildchildchild
2007-02-11 - productive weekend? i think not.
2007-02-11 - forever.
2007-02-09 - i needed this.
2007-02-09 - i'm not sorry.
2007-02-08 - and then suddenly it hit me.
2007-02-07 - intoxicating.
2007-02-06 - guess that explains it.
2007-02-05 - get some balls, cause i sure as fuck don't have any.
2007-02-04 - alive, alive
2007-02-03 - wake up to tell me, wake up to show me what i could not find.
2007-02-02 - with these ropes i tied, can we do no wrong?
2007-02-02 - my immortal.
2007-02-02 - you make me talk like a crazy person.
2007-02-02 - she's changing her name from kitty to karen.
2007-02-02 - THANK YOU
2007-02-02 - sincerely.
2007-02-02 - oh whatever,
2007-02-01 - love the all of you.
2007-02-01 - don't speak.
2007-02-01 - in the meantime.
2007-01-30 - forgetting myself.
2007-01-30 - entry # 6
2007-01-30 - like, JK.
2007-01-30 - PPS
2007-01-30 - ps
2007-01-30 - i'm suddenly feeling a great deal like alanis morrissette.
2007-01-30 - -
2007-01-29 - one chance.
2007-01-28 - worse than you would ever know.
2007-01-28 - conversations with other women.
2007-01-28 - so many people to love in my life....why do i worry about one?
2007-01-27 - baby i'm a lost cause.
2007-01-27 - baby, is this love for real?
2007-01-24 - acknowledgement.
2007-01-24 - i know she knows that i am not fond of asking.
2007-01-23 - he's wrong, but it's still cute.
2007-01-23 - find me a lover.
2007-01-22 - what is love? baby don't hurt me
2007-01-22 - =(
2007-01-21 - oh well.
2007-01-21 - how exciting!
2007-01-21 - past + present.
2007-01-21 - manipulating his emotions when he's off his meds.
2007-01-20 - no lie.
2007-01-19 - black metallic.
2007-01-18 - hurrah!
2007-01-18 - i am some sort of god.
2007-01-17 - i never understood forgiveness until i realized i wasn't capable of it this time.
2007-01-17 - classic.
2007-01-13 - dating is silly.
2007-01-12 - truly madly deeply, & all that jazz.
2007-01-12 - AND THEN
2007-01-12 - part of his response.
2007-01-12 - sent via myspace! ...we can almost be serious sometimes.
2007-01-12 - chasing cars.
2007-01-11 - i think i meant to say, \"fortune favors the brave.\"
2007-01-10 - we need solutions.
2007-01-10 - i just can't talk to him now.
2007-01-09 - possibly getting sent to him.
2007-01-08 - fuck doors & anger management issues.
2007-01-08 - need you like water in my lungs.
2007-01-08 - i know what scared you the most.
2007-01-08 - -
2007-01-08 - -
2007-01-08 - -
2007-01-07 - wake up to tell me, wake up to show me what i could not find.
2007-01-07 - she woke me up with a bang bang, looking over cross-eyed, had a big hunch that the world was a big lie
2007-01-05 - maybe we'll get lucky & we'll both grow old.
2007-01-04 - oh la, she was such a good girl to me.
2007-01-04 - nevermind.
2007-01-04 - ahahaha
2007-01-03 - we looked like giants.
2007-01-03 - i don't get it.
2007-01-03 - at least we went down fighting.
2007-01-02 - 5
2007-01-02 - 4
2007-01-02 - 3
2007-01-02 - 2
2007-01-02 - 1
2007-01-01 - 4 a.m
2007-01-01 - sorry i'm a champion.
2007-01-01 - love you so much that it hurts my head.
2007-01-01 - lesson learned.
2006-12-31 - degausser.
2006-12-30 - you're so sensitive, i am, i am a machine.
2006-12-30 - conclusion.
2006-12-30 - life is tricky.
2006-12-29 - if you don't, don't.
2006-12-28 - my pretty mouth will form the phrases that will disprove your faith in man.
2006-12-26 - take me, take me back to your bed. i love you so much that it hurts my head.
2006-12-25 - self defeating much?
2006-12-25 - bands with managers are going places.
2006-12-23 - no sorrow or pity for leaving i feel.
2006-12-23 - a little late, but this is what happened last friday.
2006-12-21 - i really didn't have anything to say, i just like this song.
2006-12-19 - counting blue cars.
2006-12-17 - i'll explain it all later.
2006-12-15 - and a music in a coffee! merry christmas.
2006-12-15 - say hello to heaven.
2006-12-13 - you're raising the dead in me.
2006-12-11 - god of wine.
2006-12-09 - all i do lately is talk.
2006-12-06 - rev 22:20
2006-12-04 - rockabye.
2006-12-03 - i know someday you'll have a beautiful life.
2006-12-02 - lovers on the carousel won't ride forever.
2006-11-26 - also.
2006-11-26 - you are second hand smoke.
2006-11-24 - & in that moment, i swear we were infinite.
2006-11-19 - i wonder if he'll speak to me then.
2006-11-17 - at least we went down fighting.
2006-11-15 - the return of apathy.
2006-11-12 - & this was his response.
2006-11-11 - whoops.
2006-11-11 - he said, \"at least it's still beating.\"
2006-11-09 - i'm almost afraid to let it go.
2006-11-07 - fuck college. i'm going to the convent.
2006-11-06 - california, rest in peace.
2006-11-05 - ba da da da.
2006-11-05 - it's been awhile since we talked last, & i'm trying hard not to talk fast
2006-11-04 - leave my life.
2006-11-03 - this life can only leave us lonely.
2006-11-02 - you might be lonely, but i'm still by your side.
2006-11-01 - there goes one statement of faith down the drain.
2006-11-01 - though my heart can take no more, i keep on running back to you.
2006-11-01 - tuesday's gone.
2006-10-30 - end.
2006-10-28 - this is not about love, cause i am not in love.
2006-10-27 - hunger hurts, but starving works when it costs too much to love.
2006-10-26 - way to go pal.
2006-10-26 - appearances.
2006-10-25 - jesus christ.
2006-10-25 - i wish i were lesbian.
2006-10-24 - you say love is a hell you cannot bear & i say, \"give me mine back, & then go there.\"
2006-10-24 - maybe he never loved me, but by god, he did it right.
2006-10-24 - has technology killed romance?
2006-10-23 - i don't go to sleep to dream.
2006-10-23 - & at my own suggestion i will ask no questions.
2006-10-22 - oh, just love me right already.
2006-10-22 - yeah, i guess i know, i just hate how it sounds.
2006-10-22 - a softer world.
2006-10-21 - atomic war means: no traffic in the mornings, no bills in the mail...i can stay in bed with you all day.
2006-10-20 - another little hole.
2006-10-20 - i really haven't been doing much of that this week.
2006-10-19 - is everything a baited hook?
2006-10-18 - beg me, & then tell me how to love you.
2006-10-18 - now there's a whole wide world that wants to know,have cheap hotels lost their turn-on?
2006-10-18 - only.
2006-10-17 - i'm done.
2006-10-16 - i am so pettyyyy.
2006-10-16 - sorry.
2006-10-16 - oh well.
2006-10-12 - natural anthem.
2006-10-11 - happy? good joke.
2006-10-11 - maybe he'll be a rockstar.
2006-10-11 - also,
2006-10-11 - don't sell the dreams you should be keeping.
2006-10-10 - would you lie here with me, & just forget the world?
2006-10-09 - you enter in full blown technicolor.
2006-10-09 - if the world would fall apart in a fiction-worthy wind
2006-10-09 - walking by.
2006-10-09 - i plan on telling him i regret him, because i know it will make him hurt.
2006-10-09 - i need some meaning i can memorize.
2006-10-07 - i wish you dead, i wish you here, i wish you anything but there
2006-10-07 - they will see us waving from such great heights.
2006-10-07 - if i saw you dancing, i would spin you around.
2006-10-07 - it's hard to explain.
2006-10-05 - i thought a little humor would help, but i guess she didn't feel the same.
2006-10-05 - remember when we were just flesh & bone?
2006-10-04 - when you sign those forms, you agree to be the governments property.
2006-10-04 - yours is the only version of my desertion that i could ever subscribe to.
2006-10-02 - she's taken my heart, but she doesn't know what she's done
2006-10-01 - i need you desperately.
2006-09-30 - i just take as much as you can throw.
2006-09-30 - let's make tonight's alcohol a little more bitter.
2006-09-30 - because that's when he's coming back.
2006-09-28 - drinks start pourin & my speech start slurrin, everybody start lookin real good.
2006-09-26 - I KNEW YOU HAD TO BE STUPID SOMEHOW.
2006-09-25 - it still makes me chuckle a bit.
2006-09-25 - i was shivering inside.
2006-09-24 - spin you around.
2006-09-24 - come home.
2006-09-23 - i will not be the first thing to make you smile in the morning.
2006-09-22 - avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak.
2006-09-19 - i want so badly to believe that love is real.
2006-09-18 - i could take you places, do you need a new man?
2006-09-18 - i just want you to know who i am.
2006-09-17 - you look so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex.
2006-09-17 - i'm looking for a dead end song.
2006-09-16 - i hear healthy girls don't hook up with multiple boys & feign lasting love all in the same weekend.
2006-09-15 - i like the way he makes me smile, & sometimes i think it's real.
2006-09-15 - i feel that i've won.
2006-09-15 - you are my life.
2006-09-12 - i only taste the saline when i kiss away your tears.
2006-09-11 - wake me up when september ends.
2006-09-09 - several days have passed now, darker than any damn cloud
2006-09-08 - give me envy, give me malice..baby, give me a break.
2006-09-07 - a comic book crush.
2006-09-06 - but my smiles are just a front.
2006-09-06 - there's a sad & lonely comfort in the hallow of your eyes.
2006-09-05 - it's such a simple plan, to take it like a man
2006-09-04 - a simple plan.
2006-09-02 - riot van.
2006-08-30 - finding out true love is blind.
2006-08-30 - a break that would make it okay
2006-08-28 - i thought i only dreamt about writing this down, but then i found it in my room.
2006-08-28 - but i'll see you soon.
2006-08-25 - let me take a little more off your mind.
2006-08-24 - i'll look after you.
2006-08-24 - i don't wanna do this alone.
2006-08-23 - we could dance in your bedroom with no romance
2006-08-21 - cause if you don't then this book's all lies.
2006-08-21 - deep inside of you.
2006-08-20 - after all that we've been through, would you still call this love?
2006-08-19 - screaming infidelities.
2006-08-18 - i'm sick of being gawked at.
2006-08-17 - but especially you.
2006-08-17 - get with 2006, kid. we don't do that anymore.
2006-08-15 - truth be told, i'd settle for a life less frightening.
2006-08-15 - promise that forever we will never get better at growing up & learning to lie
2006-08-12 - if you were born later than the 80s, i pretty much don't listen to you.
2006-08-12 - love, is this loving babe?
2006-08-11 - maybe it's love, but it's like you said; love is like a role that we play
2006-08-11 - if i'm all that you're looking for, tell me, why is there a river streaming down your face?
2006-08-10 - i don't wanna be your fall-back crush anymore.
2006-08-10 - sorry kid,
2006-08-10 - are you so strong? or is all the weakness in me?
2006-08-10 - i just wanna believe in us.
2006-08-08 - drive-by weddings & plastic engagement rings.
2006-08-07 - tear you apart.
2006-08-06 - sticks & stones.
2006-08-06 - the stranger next to me.
2006-08-06 - yeah, you're beautiful.
2006-08-06 - if you see jordan.
2006-08-05 - sorry.
2006-08-04 - black cadillacs.
2006-08-03 - i try to whisper so noone figures it out.
2006-08-03 - smile like you mean it.
2006-08-03 - even every single memory's fleeting
2006-07-30 - you're the air i breathe, but tonight i'm choking
2006-07-30 - after all that we've been through, would you still call this love?
2006-07-29 - barely an alter ego.
2006-07-28 - i am ready, i am ready, i am fine.
2006-07-27 - tear.
2006-07-27 - i want to stop being capricious.
2006-07-27 - talk show host.
2006-07-27 - i want you to remember a love so full it could send us all ways
2006-07-26 - i am not better than everyone.
2006-07-26 - long live the lying.
2006-07-26 - the ghost of you.
2006-07-25 - maps.
2006-07-25 - maybe love shouldn't be given an ultimatum, but i'm tired.
2006-07-25 - maybe i'm a writer after all.
2006-07-25 - life is ridiculous.
2006-07-24 - looking up the past.
2006-07-24 - i can't please myself, & i can't please nobody else
2006-07-24 - so when are you coming home.
2006-07-24 - my secret is fatally gorgeous.
2006-07-23 - little things.
2006-07-23 - i am not a god.
2006-07-23 - talk show host.
2006-07-23 - i want to be someone else.
2006-07-23 - boys are amazing.
2006-07-23 - jesus nitelite.
2006-07-23 - the boy who blocked his own shot.
2006-07-21 - but it's not you that i miss.
2006-07-21 - go home, & get stoned, cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me.
2006-07-20 - taken from my 'about me' section.
2006-07-18 - it's just the two of us, a silver cross, & some strength you won't believe.
2006-07-18 - this is war.
2006-07-18 - in real life, her look sort of says \"hey, i'm a sickly crackhead, & have not showered in quite some time.\"
2006-07-18 - i'm a freak, a star.
2006-07-17 - made to heal.
2006-07-16 - cool, a crazy person to add to the collection.
2006-07-16 - he just complains about life, & it bores me.
2006-07-16 - noone has ever held on in such a manner.
2006-07-16 - chris isaac here i come.
2006-07-15 - right face, wrong time, she's sweet, but i don't wanna fall in love.
2006-07-14 - like anyone would be, i am flattered by your fascination with me.
2006-07-14 - i know there's nowhere you can hide it.
2006-07-13 - you may be a lover but you ain't no dancer
2006-07-13 - the tide.
2006-07-13 - the first of many things written down on the beach at night.
2006-07-08 - i don't know why nobody told you.
2006-07-07 - the words we use so lightly, \"i only feel for you\"
2006-07-07 - your best friend in life is not your mirror.
2006-07-06 - these aren't the sort of weaknesses i like to show.
2006-07-05 - in my life.
2006-07-05 - it's amusing me & hurting my head.
2006-07-05 - i'm still dying to know
2006-07-05 - i need you so much closer.
2006-07-02 - i hate that we never got anywhere.
2006-07-02 - i'm not sure i understand yet.
2006-07-02 - how to save a life meets vanity.
2006-07-02 - everyone you meet is feeling useless & ashamed.
2006-07-02 - i left you far behind.
2006-07-01 - i'm more convinced that bad habits make best friends.
2006-06-30 - i don't know which would help me more.
2006-06-30 - all the things that you never ever told me
2006-06-29 - i heard it's cold out, but her popsicle melts
2006-06-29 - the day's frustration.
2006-06-28 - i guess it's luck, but it's the same hard luck you've been trying to tame.
2006-06-28 - i'm in love with you.
2006-06-28 - i even tried to meditate today, failure.
2006-06-27 - boys are retarded.
2006-06-27 - you have that effect on me.
2006-06-26 - themes of the summer.
2006-06-26 - i can't even remember lying to him.
2006-06-26 - i hate this dance.
2006-06-26 - it's getting worse by the day.
2006-06-25 - grey streets deliver me away from here.
2006-06-25 - i like to move alot.
2006-06-24 - for the first time in years, i'm aware of my mistakes.
2006-06-24 - today was his birthday.
2006-06-24 - if this is \"giving up\" ...then i'm giving up.
2006-06-23 - i'm better off, by the way.
2006-06-21 - a beginning.

 

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