maybe he never loved me, but by god, he did it right.

boy with the avoiding eyes, this morning we talked walking into school.

we joke about certain classmates not really being people. i said, "i guess they're close enough."

he said, "totally not."

i said, "totally are."

he said, "well most people have higher standards than you."

& i said, "oh.

so is that why i dated you?"

he stops smiling, "LOW BLOW."

slowly, his smile comes back, "touchee. but low blow all the same."

we continue to walk in silence, both wearing idiotic grins.

he turns, looks me in the eye & says, "i hate you."

i said, "no you don't. you wish you did. but you don't."

he laughed, then said on a sigh, "...i hate you."

& it almost made me miss him.

before & after