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but we could still laugh. we can always still laugh because we're real.

at our worst moments we're okay together.

i drove home & started to cry. but i was okay.

but once i got into my house & punched the front door, i realized i couldn't just deal with this.

i text him, "i think i need a break, platonically speaking. i don't know for how long, i just can't talk to you right now. okay?"

& he texts back, "neither of us will be okay with either answer. i was so afraid of this. all i can say is, if i lose you, i won't know what to do with life."

before & after