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i realized that nights like that, that's what makes me real.

i am more than human when i bide my time. i am more than human when i lie.

when i take all the control, i am a god displaced.

but when i'm in bed with a boy who likes to hold me & we find this perfect position where we face eachother, his arms are around me, my face is near his throat & he rests his head on top of mine & says, "you fit here." - that is when i'm real. that's when i'm just a girl who exists in the world, & that is what i need.

before & after