possibly getting sent to him.

i am done. you're coward #3 & that's three too many.

your insecurities all amount to me not being worth it. no matter what you say, no matter what's true - it does not matter how amazing i am. i am not enough for you to try. i'm not enough for you to take the risk.

well thanks, at least i'm in familiar territory. only i'm not because i've never felt so perfect just being near someone & i don't understand how anyone could feel that & still give up. you & your fucking endings. but then again, it's been a few days, so i'm pretty much convinced you didn't feel it & that kills.

i want nothing more than to be back in bed with you, because that was the best i ever felt.

i started crying this afternoon, really crying for the first time in...maybe seven months. i guess it kind of built up cause now i can't stop. i go off at intervals.

i need to stop getting my hopes up. you know for a self-proclaimed romantic, you're pretty fucking logical. i mean really it's a sort of talent.

me, no matter how much i get hurt, i keep trying & believing that even when things don't work out, love is worth it.

i want to stop. that part of me doesn't agree with anyone else. for all the romantics i've met, none of them value love. they want all the moments, the holding & the good feelings. but noone's interested in really loving someone, where everything isn't okay & you can't promise yourself or anyone else that it will work out.

but love should be worth it. if it isn't, what are we living for? what are we moving towards? there must be some goal, & i know it cannot be love. comfort? security? i'd take a good heartbreak over that any day.

i just want something real. love hurts. it's a fact. but it's worth it. i'd rather have a handful of amazing times with you & get absolutely crushed than never feel something so incredible. we're not choosing happiness over pain here. it's not that simple. it's just that one of those options means never loving & that can't be okay.

what do you plan to do with your life if you won't love?

before & after