conclusion.

i think i was avoiding the issue.

i think the main reason for not wanting to go with him tonight, is that he won't make me feel real.

i am not a lot of things, including but not limited to: an angel, a goddess, god, an answer, priceless, sacred, a cure, a dream, beyond human in any way shape or form.

but this is how people treat me. & with that treatment, it's no wonder i get lost.

would you be able to believe in yourself if that's how people saw you?

not real.

i exist. & i can't be with anyone who treats me like i'm not just a girl who exists in the world.

before & after