take me, take me back to your bed. i love you so much that it hurts my head.

i told the soldier (i think it's liberating to occasionally leave him noncommittal messages that i know he'll never reply to),

"i hope you go home this christmas, to the real deal home, 'when you have to go there, they have to take you in' "

& i thought,

i have entirely too many of those places for any of them to be real.

before & after