self defeating much?

i keep falling in love with you in my head all over again.

but really i don't know if you're still the same person you were a year ago, when we used to write about things like silence & metaphoric distance. when i used to write.

doesn't mean i don't love you.

in fact, while i'll certainly take substitutes, the only thing i really want out of life at this moment is to fight with you over something stupid.

the funny thing is, to this day it's still partially my fault, you know?

i could have exerted effort, but for some reason i never went that far, & honestly, i never really had that far to go.

before & after