beg me, & then tell me how to love you.

what good are we, when we love eachother all wrong? i don't even miss you the right way.

i miss how sad you looked when you were hurting me.

i guess we did a few things right, i miss cuddling in the movies, trying to defy all laws of movie theater seating.

i miss how your hand is about two times the size of mine. i miss you in the dark. i miss how the first time we had sex we kept eye contact the whole time, & the second time it was so dark outside that we couldn't see eachother even if we wanted to.

even our 10-hour date was backwards. most couples work up to sex. we started out with sex, & then hung out at the mall for nine hours.

i miss feeling like a prostitute in the hotel lobby, while you get the king size bed for one.

i miss holding hands while you drive. while we try to get lost.

i hate how tonight, there was such a long pause before you said, "i love you" when you were hanging up the phone. i haven't even said half of what i want to say to you yet.

do you still want to get married? because i don't think it'll work.

before & after