i plan on telling him i regret him, because i know it will make him hurt.
this love is making me so antisocial. i despise it. in other news, since last night's possible confession of love, i feel uncomfortable. & this upsets him. ...upsets him. fucking, good. why shouldn't he be upset too? before he went to sleep he begged me, "don't feel uncomfortable with me." but it's nothing i can help. i don't understand why i'm honest around him, but i can't stand feeling like this. this past month has been...stupid. it has been STUPID. i go from having a ridiculous grin plastered to my face, to bursting into tears, to wanting to punch something. not necessarily in that order. i just want to be alright. i don't get how this all happened again. but i wish it didn't.
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