if i saw you dancing, i would spin you around.
he would marry me as soon as i turn 18, & it scares me. but it's thrilling. & comforting. we made out, talked, ate, & cuddled for eleven hours. until yesterday, i wasn't aware of the fact that i've never been close with anyone. not really. i knew i'd never been comfortable, but close? i guess i just thought i'd been there. yesterday, i was close & i was comfortable. i'm not saying it was one of those things where it wasn't physical. it was totally physical, & we were both going crazy from the sex that wasn't being had. but then i could just lay there with my head on his chest & he'd keep his arm around me. & even though we were watching a comedy, everytime there was a clown he'd pull me in close so i couldn't see the tv, because i am deathly afraid of clowns. then when it was gone, he'd move his arms, kiss the top of my head & say, "it's okay now." this morning i could still smell his cologne in my hair. i don't know how this all happened. but i am grateful that it did. i never really felt loved until yesterday.
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